went to the MOMA today in sf and the photo exhibits were so great! i sometimes question myself if this is where i’m supposed to be and what i’m supposed to be doing. then there are days like this that remind me why i love what i love to do :)
Aries Apr 19 2012 You are blessed today, Aries. As we edge closer to the end of April, you will begin to see a major life event in a new light. Something that you once felt bad about will soon be visible from a different perspective. Something that did not work out was not meant to work out,…
i’ve had alot on my mind lately. (mostly self reflecting) i don’t know how this started or what triggered it, but my attitude about life is changing. it’s definitely not a bad thing, but its different for sure. i’m not fighting it either which is weird. i’m ready with my arms wide open for a possible life change.
this all started around spring break i think. a week off from school really lets your mind race to all these places its never been before. basically i just had some time to gather my thoughts, which i really needed. oh so many things to think about at the same time. so so many. there’s my living situation at home which has gradually become uncomfortable and i’m trying my best to not let it affect me at least until finals are over. then there’s finals. thats self explanatory of course. then there’s my dad and work. aside from those things, i am at war with myself kinda. haha. umm i don’t know how to explain this clearly so forgive me whoever reads this, if anyone reads this. i guess this is coming from the fact that i’m coming to a turning point in my life, and i’m starting to see what really matters. what my priorities actually are.
i don’t really like going out or clubbing that much anymore. all of a sudden i don’t wanna go to EDC. even after seeing the set list, (which is fucking amazing btw) i just don’t wanna go. the benefit from not going is some extra change in my pocket if i’m able to sell my ticket. today is 4/20 and i don’t wanna smoke. haha sounds stupid i know, but i just have no desire to anymore. also i just feel like i’m getting too old for all this nonsense i usually do. don’t get me wrong its fun, but dammit i’m growing up i guess. lol i definitely had an amazing 21st year but even though i’m just a year older, all that stuff just seems juvenile now.
the only reason this seems weird is because this is all not me. if any of my friends from home were to read this they would probably say, “wtf reena! who are you?!” lol i can only imagine what some of them will say once i tell them i’m not going to EDC anymore. wahhhh i’m not whining, but this is all just different and happening all at once. i just have to get used to it, and i can. thank the lord for my mother because for once in our lives we are on the same page and she’s surprisingly being really understanding.
anyways…i just had to get that out. to everyone else have a splendid 4/20 and i hope you don’t get a surprise drug test tomorrow haha!